My Relapse and the struggle to get help

So i have not posted on here since May it seems "wow" and to be honest a lot has happened since then, mainly revolving around my huge relapse i have had in my OCD over the last 3 months.

Stress of course is a partial factor, any kind of stress will generally spike OCD symptoms in any sufferer even if the stress has nothing to do with OCD.

Huge money debts for me, to the tune of around £5000 due to a "Friend" screwing me over when i do like i always do and be to nice and lend people money who are in need, of course relying on ESA as my main source of income to pay off such debts is very difficult indeed, add on top of that trying to pay for my own private therapy due to how useless the NHS is "More on that in a minute" currently standing at nearly £1000, so money and stress over it has not helped at all.

My medication originally Fluvoxamine/Luvox is no longer working as effectively as it was so what steps have i taken in trying to get help and how easy was it.

During this time i went to my Doctor, who referred me to CAMHS for a review and the waiting time was only 2 weeks so not too bad.

CAMHS was a nice experience, very friendly staff and i met with a lovely psychiatrist and seemingly lovely nurse who asked me to talk about my OCD, how it effects me and they went on to offer me 3 possible alternatives and gave me all the information i needed regarding each medication and i was given a week to make a decision on which option i wanted to try out.

Chlomipramine, Respiridone and Sertraline were my 3 options which i discussed with my doctor and did my own research and came to the decision to try Sertraline.

During this time with the help of my private therapist, who by the way is very good but she understands i struggle to afford it so any free help i can get is high on the agenda and that's what the NHS is for, i applied to a local OCD Group through Talking Space, which is a Oxfordshire based NHS Charity with a very useful self referral system as well.

However they rejected my referral due to me being seen by CAMHS and they wanted to wait for CAMHS decision before they good refer me which was fair enough i thought. So i went back to CAMHS they discharged me and started me on Sertraline and they said we will let Talkingspace know we discharged you and to refer you for the OCD Group.

So i referred myself with Talkingspace and only to get refused again

The excuse this time was they only deal with minor cases of OCD, don't make sense to me as it's suppose to be a support group a great way to meet like minded people?

So now i was a bit stuck, no support on the NHS apart from a long waiting list and my only option for now is private therapy which i can't really afford.

So left to my own devices i plod on with my Sertraline and my monthly private therapy sessions, but the OCD has kept sneaking up on me.

And now i am down to this.....My OCD sometimes stops me playing computer games when i like, Eating what and when i like, going out to see friends when i like, going to the gym when i like, if i go against my OCD something really bad will happen to me......

My weight is now down to just above 8 stone, considering i am 5ft8 i am borderline normal/underweight, of course malnutrition would effect even the most healthy of people, it is just a vicious cycle.

Current update, i am being referred to the AMHT again :-) it's a very up and down struggle right now but i aim to beat it

More updates soon