The big Crash

So i have not posted on here in awhile mainly due to my OCD ironically, and as a S.A.D sufferer this time of year is always the hardest for me. So as for a update nothing much to tell, as for the last few days ALOT. I am having one of my big spike periods which sometimes is due to stress but sometimes it's for no reason at all which is even more frustrating. I feel this time it maybe due to girl problems sigh, which makes sense really or though UN OCD related, as for these spikes well there awful and can lead to almost a sense of not being able to function at all. Deciding what to have for dinner, or tea or a snack is impossible, Its got to be the right one or something bad will happen, but during a spike all options seem wrong and it can take up to 15 minutes to make a simple decision. If I can play my favourite computer games is also impossible a simple yes or no decision can take nearly half an hour it really does seem like being disabled and when nobody around you understands or gets very lonely to. Now my therapist and most others would say ignore the thoughts and carry on as you want to....Insanity and to be honest resisting is one of my faults..