Day 2: Food, my anorexia battle

So if i finish all this bowl of Chicken in white wine sauce today, something really bad is going to happen to me....Not because of the food itself ie "Food Poisoning", but just because my OCD says that somehow doing this will magically make something really bad happen to me? Of course Anorexia in OCD sufferers can also be due to a constant fear of harm coming to them or others due to Germs or Food poisoning

This is a problem i have faced on and off for the past 5 years regarding my OCD, vary from day to day about how much of my food i can supposedly eat, 90% of it, 60%, 50%, 10% on a bad day and this leads to a secret Anorexia battle for me which is beyond what most people will assume is the cause of Anorexia.

5 Years ago this issue was so bad my weight was down to just under 7 Stone, and this is for a mid 20's man at 5ft 9, My doctor said i was very close to having serious health problems because of this, but my OCD would not allow that as a acceptable answer, i needed help now, but the best the NHS could offer was a 6 month waiting list? but lets save that issue for another day.

Fast forward 5 years and i am now ALOT better than i usually am thanks to medication and CBT therapy, but i still face a day to day battle of supposedly how much i can eat to feel safe, and for a fitness freak like me, working out means calories needed, so more food, so it is a very vicious cycle.

So next time someone says they are "So OCD" maybe ask them when they last enjoyed such a meal?